Today was just an all around good day. Nothing special or monumental happened, it was just ordinarily fabulous. I had the old familiar pep back in my step…singing and smiling. I guess I’m finally seeing some sort of rainbow at the end of this storm. It’s refreshing to know that even though we go through the vallies of life, there’s still the mountain peak to look forward to.
Where’s the Love? April 2, 2007
It’s hard to smile.
It’s hard to act like nothing is wrong.
I just tell myself, you are happy, you are beautiful, and most of all…you ARE loved.
One cannot choose to sit and wallow in self pitty, this only ends in self destruction. Hold your head high and smile from within….Remember who your creator is. Perfect- One of the many adjectives used to descibe the indescribable God. Remember: He is the one who knows everything about you, yet loves you the same. He cares…He wants to know our most lofty dreams AND the most minute details of our lives. Who wouldn’t want a friend like Him?
Cast your anxiety on Him, He cares for YOU.
Wasted. March 24, 2007
Cause’ I don’t wanna’ spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I’ve let all these years go by
WastedOh I don’t wanna’ keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain’t spending no more time
Wasted
She kept drivin’ along
Till the moon and the sun were floating side-by-side
He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear
For the first time in a while
The Chorus and Bridge from Wasted by Carrie Underwood
I haven’t posted in a while, mainly because our internet has not been working properly. GRRR…the internet was working on every compter in my house except for my laptop. But, no worries, we are back on track.
I really love this song. Whenever I first saw the name of this it, I was like WHAT?! Is Carrie Underwood singing about getting wasted and comepletely trashed. Then I listened to the song, and it “inspired” me, if you will. Waste. How much time to I waste? How many memories have been thrown away? How many details have been overlooked? How much to I miss out on each day? I don’t want to live a life sitting back, I want to live life soaring high.
Say what you mean, Mean what you say… March 15, 2007
Why is it that it is so hard to just come out and say what I am feeling? We all walk around here with emotional masks on. So scared of rejection, so scared to be open, scared to feel inferior, scared to love, scared of getting hurt, just scared of the feelings themselves. So why not hide. Put a mask over the emotions- try to make them go away, but they never do. I never spill my emotions until it is too late. I let them build up for so long, so eventually they must EXPLODE from behind my mask. Life is hard. Especially when we are all hiding. Say what you want to say. Listen to yourself. Key into the feelings. Understand yourself and in turn try to understand others. Throw the mask away, you dont need it. There is a voice deep inside yearning to be heard. I think I am finally listening to mine.
What’s in a Word? March 10, 2007
Words are neat.
Especially the everyday ones that we use all the time, yet often overlook. Or the small words that can be so powerful.
delight is one of my top favorite words. The word just sounds friendly and cheerful. When you really enjoy something–you are delighting in it. I know that probably sounds silly..but this word is just powerful to me. Seven letters and two syllables of impact.
“Delight in the Lord”
Fabulous. I enjoy saying the word like this “FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABULOUSSSSSSS!!” If you have ever been around me, I’m sure you have heard this come from my lips.
Hillarious. Not just funny, but extremely funny.
Mega.
Definitely. Without any doubt. This word is solid.
Yes, I am not sure why these words intrigue me so…they are just some of my favorites!
For me, sometimes it is so hard to find just the right word to fit exactly what I am thinking or feeling. It extremely bothers me whenever the best word cannot be found to express my thought. But then there’s those moments when even the most articulate of people are not able to craft together the perfect sentence. You know those times. When something utterly horrible happens or at a time of sheer disbelief. Whenever something surprising comes along, the joyful aspects of life. Those are the moments that leave one speechless. Cherish the things that take your breath away- do not take the experiences for granted. Enjoy the moment, take it all in, then find the perfect word to describe it…
I figured it out!! March 8, 2007
So, I seriously haven’t posted in about a month. I’m not sure why- there’s no REASON, that is just what happened. I haven’t forgotten, because I’ve definately gotten several reminders from Christa….But ya know, it feels good to sit in my cumfy chair with my laptop and write something random.
Yesterday, I found myself sitting in 5th hour (which is newspaper) and something happened to make me start singing the song from Aladdin- The magic carpet ride song to be exact- and it hit me. And what exactly hit me? Well, a big pile of what I’m going to do with my life hit me right between the eyes. Yes, after seventeen years of wondering what I am going to be when I grow up, I’ve finally got it! I am going to work at Disney World. From now on I will wear a badge that states “FUTURE HAPPINESS MAKER”, because that is what I will do. I’m pretty sure it has been proven somewhere that one cannot be sad at Disney World. If you’ve ever journeyed to this magical place, it is clear what I am saying. Disney World is the happiest place on earth. Just think about it…hanging out with Mickey and Donald all day….wow…
Excitement February 8, 2007
On March 21 I am going to a concert in Baton Rouge and I’m already super ecstatic!
What an awesome worship experience this will be: Louie Giglio is speaking and Chris Tomlin and Matt Redman are going to lead the music- it can’t get much better than that!
Only $29 if you would like to go! 
Who’s Got My Back? February 8, 2007
Don’t let your circumstances control your walk with God.
Let your walk with God control your circumstances.
WOW, right? How many times do I sit and say “this was absolutely a HORRIBLE day…this happened, and that didn’t go like I’d planned, blah, blah, blah”…. I’m sure you know the drill.
This week I started out with a pity party for myself. My attitude was horrible, I was looking on the down side to everything, I was getting lazy with my quiet times. You name it, it was NOT going my way. Then, last night I heard that wonderful phrase. I’ll say it again:
Don’t let your circumstances control your walk with God.
Let your walk with God control your circumstances.
God was just sending me a little message…HE is in charge, not me, and I just needed to be humble.
SO WHAT if my car won’t start and I just stepped in dog poop. SO WHAT if my computer has a virus and crashed. SO WHAT if someone annoys me. SO WHAT if things don’t go my way. If I am focusing on GOD for my source of fulfillment, these things will not be as big of a deal as they were before. Yes, they’ll still be there, but when I rely on God, He’ll help me. When I am focusing on Him, it is easier to deal with the things that come my way each day because He’s guiding me.
You see, It’s pretty reassuring to know that because I am faithful, God WILL have my back.
Finally.. February 7, 2007
So, I made this blog about a week ago, but i haven’t gotten up the courage to post.
So here I go, maybe this will entertain you.
Last night I laid down in my bed, snuggled up, changed positions, grabbed another pillow, organized the blankets, tossed and turned one more time, finally got comfortable, then fell into blissful slumber. You know, those amazing sleep experiences. You just seem to have this aura of peacefulness shining all around…drool dripping down your cheek onto your pillow until there is enough to fill one of those rainbow colored kiddy pools. The kind of sleep that makes you five minutes tardy to school. THIS was the kind of sleep I was experiencing- deep, wonderful, non-stressful SLEEP.
Well, my bliss was short-lived.
It was 1:30, Central Time of course, and I am not only awakened, but also jolted out of my slumber. Yes, my pillows tumbled to the floor, my stuffed bear almost took a ride on the ceiling fan, and my blankets flew everywhere…
All because of a ridiculously loud sound coming from outside my window
BONNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
It never ended.
There I sat, for FIVE MINUTES, trying to come out of my zombie sleep nature that I had been in for the past two and a half hours. What WAS this NOISE???
BONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
It continued, I was confused.
BONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Ten minutes had gone by. I finally became conscious enough to stumble out of bed, put on my sparkly slippers, opened my door, shuffled to the living room, and found my dad staring at me with a weird grin on his face. “Sleeping well?” he chuckled…(obviously HE hadn’t been experiencing beautiful sleep like I mentioned earlier)
My loving father explains to me that our neighbor Elray, Elroy, or maybe Elmo…. Yeah, we’re not sure exactly what his name is…anyway it was HIS TRUCK’S HORN GOING OFF. We stood around for about five more minutes, longing for the constant noise to stop, but of course, it doesn’t. This brutal noise is just taunting us. “Haha..I’m keeping you from your fabulous slumber..and YOU can do NOTHING about it!” That horn is just a jerk, I decided.
So my dad put on his coat and shoes, and headed next door to Elmo’s house. I went back to my warm bed, and watched the rest of the scene unfold from my window. Lucky me, Elray’s truck is parked ten feet away from my room! My dad walked up to the front door and politely rang the doorbell. Seconds go by and no answer. So, my dad began to knock on the thick wood door. More seconds go by, and still nothing. By now, my dad is cold, aggravated, and just wants to go to be in peace. So he begins [frantically] banging on Elroy’s door. And STILL, no answer. Elmo is OBLIVIOUS to our torture!
Then my dad walks up to Ell..?’s white F250 that is making all the racket. Having an extremely vivid imagination, I imagine him kicking the truck until the jerk stops making all the noise, but he doesn’t. He just simply walked around the truck a couple of times, scanned the situation, and realized that there was nothing he could do. I just tried to go back to sleeep….
BONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Yes, the persistant noise is still ringing.
BONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
10 More minutes of hell’s music.
BONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
….10 More
BONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
I wedged my head between my two pillows, hoping for the noise to STOP.
BONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
20 Minutes later, the BONG is not as loud. HALLELUIAH! IS IT OVER?
BONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
But it still kept ringing, five more agonizing minutes of torture.
Then…I did not believe my ears! The Ringing had subsided! IT FINALLY STOPPED! Finally I could go back to bed. Finally I could have GLORIOUS sleep again.
Finally, peaceful silence…..
….Until my alarm rang
