June 22, 2007

Being a typical Thursday, today was dull. I went to four different stores to shop for shoes and earrings. Normally when i go shopping, I buy something- most of the time not even what I set out for. But today was different. Borederline scary. I did not buy anything. Yay me, I guess, Saving $$. I also went to work. Fun times. Mallory, Jana, and Callie worked also, so it wasn’t a total drag. I’m definately working to live right now, which is exactly why it’s probably a good thing that I didn’t buy anymore clothes, shoes, jewelry or other girly items. I need to save.

 I sure am glad I work to live, because if I live to work….that would be a pretty sucky life I suppose.

We Live For What We Believe In June 21, 2007

I read this the other day in Donald Miller’s book, Blue Like Jazz: We Live For What We Believe In. Once I start to truly believe things, I am going to live it, no ifs ands or buts about it… Which makes me reflect on my walk with God. If I am whole heartedly believing in Him, I should be uncontrollably doing His will- doing the things He desires for me– which is everything good. I want to live for God. I want to feel loved, be fulfilled and show that to everyone around me. What I belive is what I do. And the things I do and say reflect the condition of my heart. Man, it is so hard to figure this whole life/God/Lizzie thing out. I don’t know if I ever will, or if I am ever supposed to, for that matter. I am hungry, but not in a physical sense. I want something to drink, but there’s no liquid you can give me that will quinch the lingering thirst. Only one thing can, and it is so elementary yet so complex. It’s God. GOD. GOD! He’s the one. As I hunger for Him, the amazing thing is that He fills me up. The more and more I run after Him, He runs after me a million times faster. And the more I am buried inside of Him and when I yearn for Him, He reveals Himself to me. Just a glimpse of how deep He is, but oh what a glorious glimpse it is. The thing is, He gives us a choice. He does not force me to dive into His mercy or swim around in His grace. He wants me to, Heck He loves it when I’m obediant to Him. And the reason is because obediance brings blessings. Obediance brings joy- joy that never goes away during the hard times. Deep burning joy that gets one through life. My God is madly in love with me, and I want to be madly in love with Him.

I STINKIN HATE DIETS!! April 25, 2007

So yeah, I previously went on a diet for about six weeks losing a total of 30 lbs. It is called a no carb diet…or extremely low carb diet. I eat about 20 carbs a day, which is pretty much nothing. No carbs…for all you people who don’t understand the depth of torment of this diet, I’ll explain it by saying what I CAN eat, because this list is much shorter….

MEAT

Cheese

Eggs

Green Beans

Salad

MEAT

Cucumbers

Celery

MEAT

Cheese

oh, did i mention MEAT…?

 The End, That’s it.

NO Bread. NO Candy. NO Chocolate. NO Rice. No Potatoes….ect. ect. ect….

So I’m really craving chocolate right now. That’s the only reason I posted this…I’m craving some milk chocolate horribly…

Ahh..the cost of beauty.

A Breeze Can Be More Than A Breeze April 24, 2007

So, I’ve definitely decided that I don’t post enough. I don’t know why, because I love to write blogs. It’s funny, because some of the things I love in life are also some of the things I do the least and take for granted the most.

So I’m sitting on the front porch, flowers and plants all around me. The wind hits my body and blows my hair across my face, so now I have to put my hair up… moments like this make me realize that life is good. God is good. God makes everything glorious. Simple times like these make my greatest problems seem pointless, my loftiest goals seem attainable, and my God seem even bigger. God is so big. Enormous. Gigantic. I can’t even begin to describe how huge He actually is. Yet, He cares just as much about me. He cares that I had a good day, He helps me when I’m having a bad day, He listens to me when I talk to Him, He wants to know my dreams. Wow. I’m glad we’re on the same team.

A lizard just scurried by my foot. Yeah, God likes lizards too…

 Some things I’ve been thinking about lately…

Why won’t school just END

What am I going to do with my life?

Should I join the National Guard?

I really love singing!

How can God love me so much?

Should I try out for American Idol?

I want to pursue God. He is pursuing me.

Why can’t the school change the rules to Brandon can go to Sadie?

I’m so happy.

How can my mom put up with me?

Why can’t other people be happy for me too?

Log Rhythms are FUN!

 Ok. So  there’s what’s filling my thoughts….I just give them to God, after all, He IS in control.

 This post is stupid, but I don’t feel like stopping.

But I guess I will.

If I have something important or significant to say…I’ll post again.

Untill next time, folks…

Smile April 4, 2007

Today was just an all around good day. Nothing special or monumental happened, it was just ordinarily fabulous. I had the old familiar pep back in my step…singing and smiling. I guess I’m finally seeing some sort of rainbow at the end of this storm. It’s refreshing to know that even though we go through the vallies of life, there’s still the mountain peak to look forward to.

Where’s the Love? April 2, 2007

It’s hard to smile.

It’s hard to act like nothing is wrong.

I just tell myself, you are happy, you are beautiful, and most of all…you ARE loved.

One cannot choose to sit and wallow in self pitty, this only ends in self destruction. Hold your head high and smile from within….Remember who your creator is. Perfect- One of the many adjectives used to descibe the indescribable God. Remember: He is the one who knows everything about you, yet loves you the same. He cares…He wants to know our most lofty dreams AND the most minute details of our lives. Who wouldn’t want a friend like Him?

Cast your anxiety on Him, He cares for YOU.

Wasted. March 24, 2007

Cause’ I don’t wanna’ spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I’ve let all these years go by
WastedOh I don’t wanna’ keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain’t spending no more time
Wasted

She kept drivin’ along
Till the moon and the sun were floating side-by-side
He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear
For the first time in a while

The Chorus and Bridge from Wasted by Carrie Underwood

I haven’t posted in a while, mainly because our internet has not been working properly. GRRR…the internet was working on every compter in my house except for my laptop. But, no worries, we are back on track.

I really love this song. Whenever I first saw the name of this it, I was like WHAT?! Is Carrie Underwood singing about getting wasted and comepletely trashed. Then I listened to the song, and it “inspired” me, if you will. Waste. How much time to I waste? How many memories have been thrown away? How many details have been overlooked? How much to I miss out on each day? I don’t want to live a life sitting back, I want to live life soaring high.

Say what you mean, Mean what you say… March 15, 2007

Why is it that it is so hard to just come out and say what I am feeling? We all walk around here with emotional masks on. So scared of rejection, so scared to be open, scared to feel inferior, scared to love, scared of getting hurt, just scared of the feelings themselves. So why not hide. Put a mask over the emotions- try to make them go away, but they never do. I never spill my emotions until it is too late. I let them build up for so long, so eventually they must EXPLODE from behind my mask. Life is hard. Especially when we are all hiding. Say what you want to say. Listen to yourself. Key into the feelings. Understand yourself and in turn try to understand others. Throw the mask away, you dont need it. There is a voice deep inside yearning to be heard. I think I am finally listening to mine.

What’s in a Word? March 10, 2007

Words are neat.

Especially the everyday ones that we use all the time, yet often overlook. Or the small words that can be so powerful.

delight is one of my top favorite words. The word just sounds friendly and cheerful. When you really enjoy something–you are delighting in it. I know that probably sounds silly..but this word is just powerful to me. Seven letters and two syllables of impact.

“Delight in the Lord”

Fabulous. I enjoy saying the word like this “FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABULOUSSSSSSS!!” If you have ever been around me, I’m sure you have heard this come from my lips.

 Hillarious. Not just funny, but extremely funny.

 Mega.

Definitely. Without any doubt. This word is solid.

Yes, I am not sure why these words intrigue me so…they are just some of my favorites!

For me, sometimes it is so hard to find just the right word to fit exactly what I am thinking or feeling. It extremely bothers me  whenever the best word cannot be found to express my thought. But then there’s those moments when even the most articulate of people are not able to craft together the perfect sentence. You know those times. When something utterly horrible happens or at a time of sheer disbelief. Whenever something surprising comes along, the joyful aspects of life. Those are the moments that leave one speechless. Cherish the things that take your breath away- do not take the experiences for granted. Enjoy the moment, take it all in, then find the perfect word to describe it…

I figured it out!! March 8, 2007

So, I seriously haven’t posted in about a month. I’m not sure why- there’s no REASON, that is just what happened. I haven’t forgotten, because I’ve definately gotten several reminders from Christa….But ya know, it feels good to sit in my cumfy chair with my laptop and write something random.

 Yesterday, I found myself sitting in 5th hour (which is newspaper) and something happened to make me start singing the song from Aladdin- The magic carpet ride song to be exact- and it hit me. And what exactly hit me? Well, a big pile of what I’m going to do with my life hit me right between the eyes. Yes, after seventeen years of wondering what I am going to be when I grow up, I’ve finally got it! I am going to work at Disney World. From now on I will wear a badge that states “FUTURE HAPPINESS MAKER”, because that is what I will do. I’m pretty sure it has been proven somewhere that one cannot be sad at Disney World. If you’ve ever journeyed to this magical place, it is clear what I am saying. Disney World is the happiest place on earth. Just think about it…hanging out with Mickey and Donald all day….wow…