All or Nothing January 8, 2009

So, it is a new year. New. Fresh start. New. I love that word new. It rings of something better. The cliche thing to do at new years is make resolutions, but will the empty resolutions I make actually make this year better? Or will they simply get lost in the hopeful promises to “go to the gym”… “make strait A’s”… “spend more quality time with my friends and family”…

No, I think for this new year, I need a heart change. What I desire truly has to change. So, God’s been teaching me about this whole love thing lately, and I’m really trying to love Him. In this process, I think He will change me. Actually, I know He will. The thing is, God doesn’t just want part of me; He wants all of me. He longs for all of my focus to be on Him. This is such a hard thing! I get busy, I get bogged down, and I get to where i feel like when I have free time, I just want to spend it on myself! But none of that matters. I serve a relentless God who loves me and desires for me to love Him back. I serve a God who is into me. I want to be into Him. So I have to serve wholeheartedly. My leftovers are simply not good enough, and that’s fine with me. I’m ready to embark on another chapter of my spiritual journey, excitedly waiting for what He is going to show me. I know it sounds cheesy, but sometimes all I’m going to have is God… and I am so glad! He will never disappoint me. In fact, I hope He surprises and astounds me more than I can ever imagine. 

So, this new year, I’m going to focus less on resolutions, and more on loving my amazing God. The world may consider this foolish, but boy are they fooled.