I was sitting here reading all my previous posts. It is so interesting to remember all the things I was going through at that point in my life. The pain sprinkled with moments of joy and understanding. Thinking bout those times, I am reminded how much God has grown me. I am not the person I was two years ago- thankfully- I am not the person I was six months ago. I’m not even the same person I was last month.
About six or seven months ago, God really started working on my heart. Tugging and nudging at my soul. Into the depth of my being, He was whispering for me to listen, Asking me to surrender my life, and let Him take control. The self-destructive path that I was beginning to go down was not the life He had in store for me. The thing that I claimed to be Lord, had not been Lord of my life at all. I was ruling my own life, and in doing this, nothing was fulfilling. Something was missing. You see, He longed for ME to have a deep and meaningful relationship with HIM. He desired for me to have everything good and everything pleasing. And this pleasure and goodness was and is in Him. All I had to do was change my heart, yet the only way to do this was to allow Him to work in my life.
In the Christian walk, there is no instant gratification- everything is a process. Following Him is a daily decision. Everyday I have to choose to ask for my desires to be the same as God’s. As I am faithful to the Lord, He fills me up! As I dig deeper into who He is, He gradually grows me. My faith is stronger now than it was a few weeks ago, and even stronger than a few weeks before that. And as I look how far I have come, I realize how much more I want to grow.
It has been a while since my last post. Now, instead of being a high school junior, I am a freshman in college! WOOP WOOP! I attend Louisiana College in Pineville and I absolutely love it! I really think God has much to teach me here. I am still dating my high school sweetie, Brandon and I absolutely love him too!!
