Wasted. March 24, 2007

Cause’ I don’t wanna’ spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I’ve let all these years go by
WastedOh I don’t wanna’ keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain’t spending no more time
Wasted

She kept drivin’ along
Till the moon and the sun were floating side-by-side
He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear
For the first time in a while

The Chorus and Bridge from Wasted by Carrie Underwood

I haven’t posted in a while, mainly because our internet has not been working properly. GRRR…the internet was working on every compter in my house except for my laptop. But, no worries, we are back on track.

I really love this song. Whenever I first saw the name of this it, I was like WHAT?! Is Carrie Underwood singing about getting wasted and comepletely trashed. Then I listened to the song, and it “inspired” me, if you will. Waste. How much time to I waste? How many memories have been thrown away? How many details have been overlooked? How much to I miss out on each day? I don’t want to live a life sitting back, I want to live life soaring high.

Say what you mean, Mean what you say… March 15, 2007

Why is it that it is so hard to just come out and say what I am feeling? We all walk around here with emotional masks on. So scared of rejection, so scared to be open, scared to feel inferior, scared to love, scared of getting hurt, just scared of the feelings themselves. So why not hide. Put a mask over the emotions- try to make them go away, but they never do. I never spill my emotions until it is too late. I let them build up for so long, so eventually they must EXPLODE from behind my mask. Life is hard. Especially when we are all hiding. Say what you want to say. Listen to yourself. Key into the feelings. Understand yourself and in turn try to understand others. Throw the mask away, you dont need it. There is a voice deep inside yearning to be heard. I think I am finally listening to mine.

What’s in a Word? March 10, 2007

Words are neat.

Especially the everyday ones that we use all the time, yet often overlook. Or the small words that can be so powerful.

delight is one of my top favorite words. The word just sounds friendly and cheerful. When you really enjoy something–you are delighting in it. I know that probably sounds silly..but this word is just powerful to me. Seven letters and two syllables of impact.

“Delight in the Lord”

Fabulous. I enjoy saying the word like this “FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABULOUSSSSSSS!!” If you have ever been around me, I’m sure you have heard this come from my lips.

 Hillarious. Not just funny, but extremely funny.

 Mega.

Definitely. Without any doubt. This word is solid.

Yes, I am not sure why these words intrigue me so…they are just some of my favorites!

For me, sometimes it is so hard to find just the right word to fit exactly what I am thinking or feeling. It extremely bothers me  whenever the best word cannot be found to express my thought. But then there’s those moments when even the most articulate of people are not able to craft together the perfect sentence. You know those times. When something utterly horrible happens or at a time of sheer disbelief. Whenever something surprising comes along, the joyful aspects of life. Those are the moments that leave one speechless. Cherish the things that take your breath away- do not take the experiences for granted. Enjoy the moment, take it all in, then find the perfect word to describe it…

I figured it out!! March 8, 2007

So, I seriously haven’t posted in about a month. I’m not sure why- there’s no REASON, that is just what happened. I haven’t forgotten, because I’ve definately gotten several reminders from Christa….But ya know, it feels good to sit in my cumfy chair with my laptop and write something random.

 Yesterday, I found myself sitting in 5th hour (which is newspaper) and something happened to make me start singing the song from Aladdin- The magic carpet ride song to be exact- and it hit me. And what exactly hit me? Well, a big pile of what I’m going to do with my life hit me right between the eyes. Yes, after seventeen years of wondering what I am going to be when I grow up, I’ve finally got it! I am going to work at Disney World. From now on I will wear a badge that states “FUTURE HAPPINESS MAKER”, because that is what I will do. I’m pretty sure it has been proven somewhere that one cannot be sad at Disney World. If you’ve ever journeyed to this magical place, it is clear what I am saying. Disney World is the happiest place on earth. Just think about it…hanging out with Mickey and Donald all day….wow…